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7 Years

The thing that comes over and over is that if you had been missing this long, the system would declare you deceased. I know how bad that sounds, but we are honest on this post if nothing else.

I have also learned a lot over these years. Who real friends are. Who are acquaintances at best. Those that only care with words. I have also learned a lot about myself.

First, others opinions mean nothing. My faith has grown in ways I never knew possible. My confidence of my relationship with my Lord is without question as is my relationship with my son. Through these long years the Lord did not abandon me nor I him, but He kept his hand on me to keep me from doing what I wanted but knew was wrong. He has shown me angels and demons through this process and opened my eyes. Many people speak of things they don’t know which is bad enough, but what is worse is those that believe them while others refuse to hear the truth.

Here lies a key to faith. Believe whole heartedly and then stand on those beliefs and don’t be swayed. Search so that you know because most counsel you get is not Godly.

I am at peace with my relationship with the Lord and with my son. I am also convinced that if you put your faith in our “systems” you are destined to loose.

7 Year update- no new news. I know you can’t believe that nothing has changed but here we are. Decided a suicide before anyone got on scene, ruled as such, cause of death being changed, case still open. All the things shared with you all already. The update – We have nothing but time and will continue.

I have come to understand in a very personal way that vengeance is the Lord’s but justice is our problem. This understanding came after the Lord delivered me through the dark abyss. If our elective officials and those that are in public service fail – we are expected to call them out.

One day I believe I will find someone who will help me change the laws to the take the power away from those who have failed to live up to their responsibilities. Our justice system has issues and until we discuss these deficiencies honestly and openly and hold people accountable we will continue to have the hate mongers set group against group and never fix the real problems.

I understand we all have a lot to deal with and people don’t have the time or energy to fight my battles just as I hope others understand I can’t fight all battles either, but maybe we can align with others who have experienced the same wrongs or have a heart for the root issue. If we don’t start fixing these root issues and stop being distracted by the rhetoric things will only continue to deteriorate.

I needed to know the truth of what happened to Alec. Laws and procedures are supposed to help preserve and document what happened with evidence. This was an insult to Alec – the quality of handling of his death and the effort spent not addressing those deficiencies. This opened my eyes to how things really work or should I say are but an illusion of how we think they work.

The truth exist whether it be hidden, twisted or lied about.

I ask you to hold those in authority accountable in all things. Authority is the control we allow others to have.

In loving memory of Alec Littlefield – taken too soon 10/30/15, loved and missed forever.

6 years

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– allows for a lot of time to think.

The loss of someone you love leaves a hole in you and your life that only they can fill.

Alec, you are always loved, always, missed, and always remembered. Nothing will undo that night and nothing will fill that hole. With broken hearts we are left in a broken world.

I really thought that by presenting the facts of how Alec’s case was handled it would have an impact. I was so wrong.

We are told that we live by a set of laws. That these laws are adminstered equally. That those in authority operate by a set of rules that ensures equality and justice. We have another weakness, we think others “see” the same way we do..

Picture a world where noone had blind faith in our systems, elected officials, those in power then ask “Why do we buy into illusions ?”

Part of the illusion is that there are checks and balances if those in authority deviate. If you try to go this route you will find the common answer: vote them out. Really, this is the recourse available to the public? When the cycle comes back around, it requires that the majority of people will listen to the facts and come to the conclusion that them not living up their obligations requires them to be replaced. I have learned that the majority of people don’t operate on logic and facts, they operate on emotion and their reality is what they want it to be. I picture the quote from Adam on Mythbusters: “I reject your reality and substitute my own”.

People, not saints are in roles of responsibility and the service you get is only as good as that indivdual wants to give. If the individual takes these responsibility to heart, you will be treated equally and have justice. Just because they tell you they will doesn’t mean a thing, they have to say that to get elected and most people (fortunantley) will never have to put this to the test.

For those of you that have followed this blog, I will not restate all of these learnings that are documented as they have been experienced.

Facts:

  • Some people will be held accountable for providing alcohol to minors and the consequences of actions that occur, and others aren’t and the decision of who is and isn’t is made by your public servants even when FOIA request reveal that there were numerous instances with alcohol and minors occurred previously.
  • Laws are on the books that require that the death of a child is reported to the State Police and investigated properly. This gives the illusion of a safety net but if they fail to do it, no one cares because it is a midemenor and you will probably be told the statute of limiations for that has expired. Even some that support this vocally failed to do their mandated part and again, no one seems to care.
  • All deaths are not investigated equally. We believe there exist standards, training, and supervision to ensure it is done by the book. Another part of the illusion. And if you question this be ready to be told how ignorant you are. We mere mortals cannot understand the complicated ways of the experts.
  • There is required paperwork and investigative items that will be available after the fact if an issue arises. Don’t be surprised if you receive a document that was completed ( poorly) when you request it instead of when it was supposed to have been done.
  • And the list goes on…..

Summary:

I am now awake and realize how fly by the seat of your pants our system real works. Do not tell me to go along to get along again. If that is your stance, we have nothing to discuss.

If you are upset because you can connect people to the statements above, every statement is documented. If you just want to substitute your own reality and not question anything, that is your perogitive and you have a lot of company in our society.

I love my son, family, friends. It is an insult to him and all that care about him if you don’t do your job to the best of your ability. You don’t have to talk to me, or be considerate, but don’t think I have to like it,be quiet or go away. You may not have a consicience, but I pray that the failures and mistakes at least make you lose sleep and you don’t put another family through what we have because of your pride and inability to try to make it right.

I just didn’t understand the rules that it isn’t about truth and facts, it is about motivating people and emotion. Motivational speaker I am not. I had faith that people would look at the facts, like I did, and I guess feel at least some of what I do.

The illusion of life is by our own making. We accept the narrative as presented and don’t question because to do so might require action.

God Bless those who loved my son.

God Bless those who have shown support.

God Bless those who have had the courage to question.

Prayers for the rest.

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Not Alone

As we have discussed on this blog, Alec’s case is not the only one.  Many people cannot face the continued fight.  Again, for those that have followed I will be restating several things.  You have to relive over and over again.  I fault no one, but there are many others that are like me that cannot not keep on.  I have had the opportunity to find some wonderful new people that have broken and missing pieces of themselves.  There has always been a standing offer for others to share their stories through this blog,  to have a voice when it seems no one listens.  Below is one:

Sunshine Michelle
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On 21 February 1981, my Uncle Jeffrey Richard Hughes was killed. To this day the crime is unsolved, and we would really like some answers in this case.

It occured a little after 1:00am, in the 100 block of North Frederick Avenue, Gaithersburg, Maryland. My Uncle was walking on the sidewalk or in the parking lot of Hershey’s Drycleaners, was hit and dragged over 60 feet from Frederick Avenue by a vehcile. He was then purposely ran over a second time by the same vehicle.

Just prior to this event, he had been involved in some sort of altercation at the Sand Trap Lounge, and was in good condition upon leaving.

I believe that this was a purposeful Hit and Run, rather than an accident. There was someone (a female) who did call in to report this to police as she witnessed it, but did not ever make contact again.

If anyone know anything of this crime. Please contact me directly or Montgomery County Police Cold Case Unit at 240-773-5070.

Please share – someone DOES know something.

I am looking to identify the young lady in both the Graduation photo and the photo with my Uncle.

It is urgent that she is identified. #coldcase #violentcrime #hopeful

 

Please click the following to access the photos and summary from above:

H.O.P.E – Jeffrey Richard Hughes

If the Answer Comes First, What’s the Point of Evidence?




The Investigation That Never Happened

In the first post, we walked through how the exterior of the scene was handled: unsecured, assumptions made immediately, and critical evidence unprotected. The foundation was already cracked.

Now we move inside the truck — the place where answers should have been waiting.

1️⃣ Interior Inspection: What We Have vs. What Was Required

What we have:

A limited set of photos. No measurements. No mapping of blood inside the cab.

But these photos do establish a key fact pattern:

• No damage to the headliner

• No spatter or impact on the back glass

• No bullet strike inside the cab

• Blood located only on the driver’s door panel

A gunshot fired from under the chin, traveling upward, typically creates upward biological evidence.

The absence of that signature is inconsistent with the assumed trajectory and should have triggered deeper forensic testing.

What we know from work done by others — not police:

• Independent inspection confirms no interior bullet path

• Door panel blood documented — but not by law enforcement

• Recreation had to be done later by civilians

Why it matters

What happened to Alec is tied to the inside of that cab.

That space should have been the most scrutinized area, not the most ignored.

In summary

They recorded a body in a truck. They never investigated what the truck could have told them.

2️⃣ What the Photos Don’t Show

Photos exist. But they omit the details that turn images into evidence:

• No analysis of the driver’s door blood angle

• No documentation of direction of travel

• No measurement of Alec’s body position vs. spatter

• No imaging of the footwell for gravitational pooling

• No trajectory mapping

• No examination of hoody folds vs. claimed posture

• No analysis of stomach blood despite it implying movement

These omissions hide what should have been answered:

• Was Alec upright, slumped, or moved?

• Did blood travel into the cab… or out of it?

• Was a door open during the shot?

• Do body positions match gravity?

• Does blood on the abdomen align with immediate collapse?

• Do hoody folds reflect repositioning?

Why it matters

If the only meaningful blood in the truck is on the door, the physics of how it got there are crucial.

Police didn’t test those physics.

In summary

Evidence can’t speak when no one asks it a question.

3️⃣ The Story They Chose vs. Physics and Basic Context

They didn’t build the conclusion from evidence.

They built it from a statement — and never checked whether the physics agreed.

A — What the body says vs. their conclusion

Final photos show Alec upright.

The individual who found him stated he was slumped to the right and was pulled upright after a window was broken.

Blood on the stomach and hoody folds support post-shot movement, not a natural collapse.

Investigators never verified any of it.

B — What their documents claim vs. biomechanics

From the autopsy:

“The direction of the gunshot wound track was upward, front to back, and slightly right to left.”

“No bullet or bullet fragments were recovered…”

This is the agency’s own stated trajectory.

Yet a left-hand dominant person in a narrow cab would struggle to produce that exact angle without interior evidence of the bullet path.

Investigators did not attempt to reconcile hand dominance with gun orientation.

C — What the truck says vs. their accepted narrative

Reported version:

• Calls made to Alec with no response

• Window broken to gain access

• Body pulled upright

This sequence demands physical proof:

• Was the truck locked?

• Where is the broken glass?

• Was the body moved?

The passenger door was photographed unlocked.

No glass pattern documentation exists.

Repositioning was accepted, never tested.

D — What ballistics demand (and what’s missing)

Their own trajectory claim requires:

• Upward biological evidence on interior surfaces

• A bullet path inside the cab

• A recovered projectile or strike point

Instead:

• No interior strike

• No upward spatter

• No bullet recovered

• No trajectory strings

• No effort to reconcile the scene with the report

The trajectory exists on paper only.

Why it matters

The physical world contradicts the conclusion.

Rather than confront that, investigators ignored the conflict.

In summary

When the official trajectory cannot exist inside the photographed truck, the conclusion isn’t evidence — it’s a decision.

4️⃣ The Cost of Calling It Suicide Too Soon

The 911 call reported a self-inflicted gunshot wound.

Dispatch echoed the same assumption.

The label was assigned before anyone saw the evidence.

That label drove everything that followed.

The Sheriff’s Office and Coroner passed the same narrative to the crime lab. No suspicious circumstances were listed.

The message was clear:

Don’t look for questions. This is already answered.

The crime lab then repeated the story back — and halted examination:

“In light of these findings and the report of the circumstances surrounding death, no further examination was deemed necessary.”

Not in light of the evidence.

In light of the story.

Because they assumed suicide, they skipped:

• Trajectory evaluation inside the truck

• Bullet recovery

• Analysis of body movement

• Verification of door + window sequence

• Gun handling / hand dominance testing

No physical truth was ever asked to confirm the conclusion.

They didn’t follow the forensic trail.

They followed the rumor.

Why it matters

The most telling evidence in this case wasn’t lost — it was never collected.

In summary

They didn’t end the investigation at the scene.

They ended it in the dispatch call.

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Ten Years: The Illusion vs. The Record

October 30, 2025 will be

Ten Years. We’re told to trust “the system” and the people who run it. That trust keeps order—. Systems are like fire extinguishers: you don’t know if they work until the room is burning. Too often, they don’t. And by then, it’s too late.
I still believe this: who you are determines the service you get. Walk with me through the record—one page at a time—and decide which standard was actually met.

What this post is (and isn’t)

  • Is: A public walk‑through of the record, graded against basic investigative standards and Arkansas law—standard measured against the record —you judge for yourself.
  • Isn’t: Legal advice or a full case‑file dump. Civilians are anonymized (F# / M#). Officials are named with roles.

Timeline (condensed)

  • Oct 30, 2015 — 11:08:30 → 11:29:57: 911/CAD window for the initial calls — called in as “some body shot them self.”
  • First on scene: Howard County deputies (Floyd, Boland) report the scene secured.
  • Primary case: Hempstead County handles the investigation/reporting; Howard County first‑responder information was not acquired by Hempstead (per first responders), and no HC supplements appear in the packet.
  • Door status conflict: Responders later stated the passenger door was unlocked; yet the driver window was broken for access. (We grade this in A2/A8.)
  • Oct 31–Nov 2, 2015: Body release & autopsy routing; property/clothing released with body (ME #1068‑15; page “11_03_2015‑BODY RELEASE”).

This post links only dates/case numbers for reader FOIA.

Grade the Work (Top 6)

1) Witness Handling & Statement Integrity (A1)

Standard: Separate all witnesses; no cross‑talk; independent statements in a controlled setting.

Record: Handwritten statements from F1–F2–M1–M2 taken in a residence with the owner present; at least one person who was there that night was allowed to leave without giving a statement; and another person who was there earlier (not present at time of death) was allowed to sit with others while statements  were written, unsupervised (this is the witness account of how the statements were done). Questions the record must answer: Why weren’t all persons present that night included in the witness pool? Why was one allowed to leave, and why was a non‑T0 attendee allowed to sit with the group during statement writing? Why it matters: Cross‑talk contaminates memory; credibility drops before facts do.

Status: Deficiency — Fail.

2) Scene Photography & Diagram (A3, C5)

Standard: Baseline → mid‑range → close‑up; scene diagram; scales/placards; orientation.

Record: 37 photos total; no scene diagram; no driver‑side exterior overview; inconsistent orientation; no scales/placards visible. Breakout of the 37 photos (by subject):

  • 9 — other vehicle referenced in statements (156977–156985)
  • 8 — Alec in truck
  • 1 — Alec out of truck
  • 5 — driver side interior with door open showing blood
  • 1 — gun only
  • 10 — outside of truck (mostly approach/pull‑in; none show driver‑side exterior)
  • 3 — **hat only **Status: Deficiency — Fail.

3) Inter‑Agency Documentation Gap (A12)

Standard: First‑arriving agency supplements included. Record: Howard County first on scene, yet no Howard County supplement in the Hempstead packet. Status: Deficiency — Fail.

4) Scene Security & Entry Control (A13)

Standard: Perimeter and entry log; authorized‑persons list; scene integrity until release.

Record: A person who was there left without giving a statement; others were allowed on site during statement writing; the truck was not secured and later sat in the yard unsecured. No perimeter/entry log provided.  

Status: Deficiency — Fail.

5) Vehicle Processing / Trajectory (A6)

Standard: Bloodstain pattern + trajectory mapping; interior↔exterior correlation.

Record: Interior blood on driver door/seat/rocker; no BSPA/trajectory work documented.

  • Deputies Floyd and Boland stated the passenger door was found unlocked when they secured the scene.
  • Conflict recorded: This contradicts the stated reason for breaking the driver window to access the vehicle.
  • Root cause of ambiguity: The Hempstead case packet omits first‑responder (Howard County) supplements. Inclusion of those reports would likely resolve the door‑status conflict.

Status: Deficiency — Fail.

6) Evidence Processing — Hat & Firearm (A7, A4)

Standard: Preserve, document, and test clothing and firearm; clear round/mag accounting; maintain chain of custody. Record: Hat returned with body → later destroyed by funeral home without consultation; photo set shows no clear GSR/lead‑wipe hallmarks on hat; chain‑of‑custody for clothing is under‑documented. Firearm: statements reference two rounds removed earlier; report lists E‑1 handgun and E‑5 two bullets but lacks explicit chamber/mag status at scene; trajectory/BSPA work absent. Status: Deficiency — Fail.

Additional issues logged: round/mag accounting (A4); findings delivered by phone without durable record (A15).

Officials (Named)

  • Hempstead County: Reporting officer Luke Sorensen; Investigator Gary Dorman; Coroner Ben Brazzel.
  • Howard County: Deputies Timmy Floyd and Boland (first on scene).

Civilians anonymized as F# / M# and linked to statement IDs in the Master Pack.

What the Photos Don’t Show (Preview of Next Post)

  • Missing driver‑side exterior overview and scene diagram.
  • Gaps in baseline→mid→close sequencing; no scales.
  • Inside‑the‑truck inspection issues we’ll walk through: placement vs. staining on door/seat/rocker, and the absence of trajectory/BSPA to reconcile it.
  • We’ll also address what was told verbally later: trajectory described to me by phone, the remark about left‑handedness, and how my follow‑up with Investigator Dorman was shut down.
  • Next post will publish the audit table (including the 37‑photo breakout) side‑by‑side with standards.

Chain of Custody — Clothing and other mandatory requirements (Upcoming)

  • Autopsy packet (ME #1068‑15) documents property/clothing released with body; funeral home later destroyed clothing without consulting family.
  • Why it matters: loss of GSR/lead‑wipe and blood‑pattern testing opportunities.

Records & How to Verify

  • Incident # SO15‑2016 (Hempstead).
  • ME # 2015‑024058 / ME‑1068‑15 (Autopsy packet).
  • 911/CAD window 11:08:30 → 11:29:57 (10/30/2015).
  • FOIA request template and record locators are posted in the Master Pack. We encourage readers to verify independently.

Closing

Grief stays. So does the obligation to be exact. What’s missing here isn’t drama—it’s routine work. The gaps you see—witness handling, scene control, photo/diagram coverage, trajectory/BSPA, round & chamber status, and clothing custody—are the very steps that either verify statements or prove them wrong. Do the work and the answers follow; skip it and doubt is all that remains.

Next post: we’ll walk through the inconsistencies the photos and reports don’t resolve—interior staining vs. trajectory, door/lock status, chamber/mag accounting, and the left‑handed/angle claims—each tied to document tags so you can check me.

Hold me to the facts. Hold them to their standards.

Accountability

Our systems are failing because we have no accountability. Community/Local, State and Federal. Maybe the problem is in the definition: obligation to bear the consequences for failure to perform as expected.

Accountability

Webster’s 1913 Dictionary

n. 1. The state of being accountable; liability to be called on to render an account; the obligation to bear the consequences for failure to perform as expected

here are no consequences. They lie to us and say there are systems, processes and procedures, but those in power have to be caught with irrefutable proof and it be for something that is currently taboo or there is enough social outrage.

After Alec’s death, there was an investigator that spoke to me as a person. I truly believe he was trying, but then he was told to not return my calls.

Over the vast amount of time, another investigator was assigned but he doesn’t return calls, doesn’t follow up, nothing.

I know a lot of people see my postings and see me as the problem. Ask me if I care about opinions?

Grief never ends. Time changes nothing. We find out that we can endure much more than we ever thought we could. Grief is tied to love and love is unending.

Life is too short to be quite and just take it when people fail to perform as expected.

Sometimes you shouldn’t rock the boat, you should capsize it.

See, I have a theory…. Several in fact, but I will share about the “investigation”.

Theory: That there was a failure to investigate the death of Alec because it was assumed to be a suicide and instead of taking responsibility for the mistakes, a stall and appease strategy was put into place so as to not admit that it was mishandled.

Support for this Theory:

  • The call
    • 911 call that “someone shot them self”
    • Dispatch calls passing same
  • Statements
    • were completed without all parties giving statements
    • Those that did were all together, unsupervised, with the property owner and others all together.
  • Coroner
    • FOIA request for forms that are required to be completed resulted in documents that have numerous errors and I believe were completed at the time of the request, not when they should have been.
  • Physical evidence
    • No explanation has been provided for any of the physical evidence
      • No bullet in truck
      • No bullet hole or blood from exit
      • Blood spatter patterns
      • Clothing condition
      • Gun empty but not chamber open – verified that gun does chamber open ever time
      • Not only these, but through FOIA request there is no evidence anything was ever done to verify or check any of these or any other physical evidence. NOTHING
  • From the files and documents it appears that the statements were the basis of all findings
  • Mandatory Reporting
    • All parties involved are mandatory reporters of the death of minor by gun shot to the ARKANSAS STATE POLICE
    • No one reported this so that the ARKANSAS STATE POLICE procedures would be put into motion
    • No repercussions for failing to report – misdemeanor and past statute of limitations
  • Team not available at one point – was told they were sent to Florida death scene investigation training – have not been able to verify this happened
  • Was told Alec’s case was being shared with Sevier County Sheriff Gentry – Email FOIA no answer to date. No evidence that this ever happened. Will be following up with Sevier County.
  • Nothing for this being a repeat location (FOIA) concerning alcohol and minors

From my perspective, stall until we get tired and go away because no accountability.

I have had forensic knowledgeable people review the evidence and they agree that the inconsistencies found warrant analysis. What you see on TV about the concerned investigator that took the cold case file and reviewed the evidence is fiction.

I pray that others don’t go through what we have. The loss of someone you love is hard enough, asking for answers isn’t expecting too much. If it isn’t required, then the laws need to be changed so that it is. We need a forum to hold our public servants accountable to an expected standard.

If we have mandatory reporting in place to protect in situations like this, then they should be followed and penalties need to be increased against those that fail to perform their mandatory duties.

Some of us that see the possibility of conspiracy is because we have experienced the truth of how our “system” really works.

Tribalism

Word for the day tribalism.

Most have heard work family. Other terms like band of brothers. It is natural to form a bond, tribal mentality with those you work with, but when you protect the tribe over doing what you entrusted to do, then you are the problem. Covering up mistakes and deficiencies doesn’t protect your tribe but rather makes your tribe have no credibility.

Things may be swept under the rug to preserve appearances, but the truth still exist.

Family may be by blood or by choice also makes tribes. What happens when a tribe wrongs another?

Age of Lawlessness

Laws are followed by those who are not criminals, but the perpetrators are excused because they are the victims

Those responsible for justice find violations of law after an individual’s guilt has been decided while they can choose to ignore blatant offences at their discretion

They say justice is blind, I agree but not for the reason it is supposed to be

There is no recourse for those who disagree

The man of lawlessness has many allies

Forward

In life we have no choice but to keep moving forward. Note I didn’t say move on. Time stops for no one and the wheels keep turning. When we loose some one we love, part of us is left behind. We are forever changed..

You become out of sync with those who were not broken like you. Your perspective changes. The illusions start to drop away because what you assumed was a reality is tested and many things fail the test. You find out “I am always there for you” was really “when are you going to move on”. You find people standing by you and encouraging you and allowing you to scream, question, rage and whatever else that you have to survive and just pour love and support and you never knew they would be the ones. You find yourself in a place surrounded by people that you thought you were one of, and you realize you never were. Then there are others that are going through their crisis and you loose your way to each other.

The things we are told are important aren’t any longer because it becomes our truth, not theirs. The carrot on a string is seen for what it is, a tool to manipulate.

Our systems that keep the masses calm are tested and we find that they are run by people that answer to themselves. Illusion broken.

This blog has been a necessary step in moving forward. The loss of Alec ….. as I type this there are no right words. Part of my heart, part of my life, part of my future are all gone. We send love out and the love for him just flows into a void to not return…. Part of my very essence just flows out and it gone….

Time slows down. The wheels are like gears that start coming apart. We see the world as an observer not as a runner in a race. We see the players and what is really going on. Our perspective changes.

This blog had two main purposes. The first part was to pay tribute to Alec by the second part; to attempt to influence those investigating his death to do their job. The second part has failed miserably and I hope that we didn’t fail the first part as the second deteriorated. When it became evident that those in charge of the investigation either refuse to see any problems with their handling or worse choose to not properly investigate, the focus evolved to community awareness.

We live in a world where many choose the reality that they want. Perception is reality isn’t it? So they make the decision early on to ignore, rationalize, or minimize what ever would come into conflict with that perception.

Reality: Alec has only been 17 for 10 days and now he is Forever 17 for us. All the could have beens are gone…. We are left replaying the would have and could have knowing that this futile exercise yields nothing good. As a parent we are responsible for our children. Therefore, yes I failed because I didn’t keep him safe and this forever is my reality.

When our children are away from us we have an expectation that those they call their “friends” have their best interest at heart. We don’t always know where or who they are with but we have to hope that they have surrounded themselves with people that have their back. Reality: this isn’t always the case.

We have expectations that other adults will protect and look out for them, but reality is that they won’t.: boot leggers and predators.

Laws are ignored and common sense is not common. Cross the wrong person and laws are used to punish but the choice to execute them or not is in the hands of a few and at their discretion.

Through these years I had a few (only a couple) of friends that tried to reach out but we were diametrically opposed. To them, thank you. These that I reference reached out while the pain and rage was totally untamed. They gave me some good advice: don’t forget the rest of my family. They gave some other that I still to this day do not accept and never will: let it go. This came from a good place and intent because they thought you had to do the latter to succeed at the first.

There was other advice that was rejected: don’t rock the boat.

For those of you that gave this advice, I just ask, where is line that you would be willing to stand alone?

For those that had responsibilities to fulfill and wear the name “Christian” I ask, “How?”

And for those of you that hear them claim that name and ignore their actions I ask the same.

We hear how this country and world is sliding into chaos and it is. The world doesn’t love you but will use you and consume you. Systems that are in place but they are just an illusion. We live in a nation of laws…. What a joke. Those in power do what they want and for political gain they ignore the laws to their advantage.

And the sheeple do nothing. They have been trained so well to listen to the experts (because if you are not an expert on a subject you can’t be right), submit to authority (who are supposed to be servants not overlords).

They call Christians sheeple. A Christian that follows a man and has not the mind of Christ is not following Christ commands. A true Christian is the biggest threat to the status quo because they will refuse to ignore what they see for what they are told. They will hold people accountable and in doing bring glory to God.

The real sheeple are the ones that buy into the illusion that our government and systems will save them and give a _____

Maybe we deserve the system we have because we aren’t willing to do what it takes to make it better.

Who really cares anymore

Time and observance has revealed to me just how few people care about the same things that I do.

I have seen people that I thought had principle refuse to disagree publicly.

I have seen people lie to my face through omission, misleading, false promises and then stand up in front of world as a picture of character and ethics.

If anyone takes the time, this blog posted what was going on throughout the process of seeking answers around the death of Alec Littlefield. I put his name there because very few people even use his name. Someone dear to us did today and it was such a blessing. So many act as if he never existed.

I initially did not post on this blog everything out of caution to not interfere with an ongoing investigation. The joke is on me. The investigation is technically ongoing. My theory? If I do say something it will be used against me like now it is my fault and to block additional FIOA request.

Almost 8 years and the Hempstead County Sheriff’s office doesn’t keep me informed, doesn’t update, doesn’t communicate, doesn’t reply to emails, doesn’t give a ______

Recap:

Before anything was decided, right after Alec’s death, the Hempstead County Sheriff’s department spoke to me like I was a piece of crap. I was working with the investigator then I was GHOSTED. When I called his immediate supervisor to question why, I was basically told I was and idiot , didn’t understand how things worked, and the call did not end well. This same individual thought he would belittle me on our next call by reading the autopsy OVER THE PHONE to me. When the details were finally shared with me the angle of gun shoot was consistent with a right hand person. I questioned if he even knew Alec was left handed and that was the end of that call.

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At this point items that were evidence start to be released to me including photos. They held his phone for further investigation.

His hat has a bullet hole but no blood.

There is no bullet hole in the roof of truck

There is blood spatter that is documented and reviewed by others that is inconsistent with the story told.

Lets move to evidence. We never received Alec’s clothes, belt, and boots. The funeral home disposed of them without permission.

The Gun: My daughter and I lifted a print from the magazine because the gun, which fired the last round, had a closed chamber as shown in the photograph in the passenger floor board.

The driver window had to be broken to gain access but the passenger door wasn’t locked.

Called in as “someone shot them self”. Handled as such – should have been fully investigated not ASSUME (verified from 911 call and dispatch call)

First on the scenes was Howard County but nothing they heard or observed included. From interviews – thanks to responding officers

FOIA found

  • that the coroner forged the document sent in response
  • the location and people had been involved in numerous underage drinking incidents
  • no one called in as required to ASP Crimes Against Children

Additional learnings:

  • ASP informed that failure to report past statuette of limitations and only a misdemeanor ( I feel they didn’t care)
  • Interviewed a person on site and the statements given were done without people being isolated from themselves and others with no police monitoring

There are so many other items but this should give you a good idea why I have no faith in these people and why we will not go away.

I understand that nothing will bring Alec back and we may never know exactly what happened. We have evidence and it doesn’t add up to the “story” presented. The physical evidence cannot be denied but was never relevant.

There has been no accountability for the the investigative failures nor has anything changed that I have seen.

We deserve what we accept and I refuse to accept this. Alec deserves better. IF you don’t like that I am posting this I must ask why? If you wonder why people don’t have faith in the system, I can tell you why.

Love

There is so much talk of love now a days, but from what I see either there is little understanding or we have a very different understanding of what love is.

Love is seeing what is possible. Potential. Hope mixed with the willingness to sacrifice to help become. Love is not judgment based upon mistakes.

Love is willing to see imperfections, errors and even wrongs honestly and able to work together to overcome. Love is not manipulation by holdings these things over the others head.

We see the word Love associated with so many things. You cannot love something and want to destroy it. You cannot love and watch others disgrace or disparge the object of your love.

If someone doesn’t love something, then they are the enemy and have no right to the future as it relates, seeking to destroy that which is loved leaving chaos and emptiness

Land of Laws

On April 28, 2023 the president signed a proclamation on Law Day stating in the first paragraph that based upon our Founding Fathers, America would not be a land of kings but a NATION OF LAWS.

How useful is a law if it isn’t enforced? Do we have a two tier Justice System ? Is treatment fair, and what is fair?

You know who follow the laws? Law abiding citizens.

You know who doesn’t ? Criminals.

So what is the name for those who do not enforce them ? Aside from speed traps, sting operations and accidentally being in the right place while a crime is in process law enforcement respond after the fact. Don’t get me wrong, I do not want the Minority Report. We as a society have been told that justice is blind and everything has rules and procedures with checks and balances to ensure fairness. We ignorantly believe this until we don’t.

We have mobs stealing stores blind and they aren’t stopped or procesecuted. I know you will say, “but that doesn’t happen here”. So what does happen here? A group of people decide what gets investigated and how. And what can you do if you disagree? In a business you file a complaint, boycott, speak to the manager, submit to better business bureau, or pass a law. If it is anything associated with a public servant — there is no recourse unless your situation is one of the currently emotional areas that fit the media’s narrative.

But if it is an elected official you can fix it through the next election. JOKE Look at how much time you may have to wait and then, refer to section above, everyone that hasn’t experienced what you have thinks everything is great so don’t rock the boat.

I believe that I am only one of many that have lost faith (in other words , not ignorantly bliss) in our public servants and systems as a whole. These systems are the people we have to interact with. People can serve their own motives and not those whom they are supposed to serve.